UPDATE

SO as we all know the H1N1 (swine flu) has been a big deal to alot of countries and it is predicted to become an epidemic. And we also know I had moved in with my friend Humper, well Humper has these friends who have been over for a few days and gotten the whole house sick with swine flu. I just got out of the hospital I got it the worst. i will let you know more later but I feel so weak right now I can barely hold myself up.... BEst wishes in your sugary hunts girls.
Deja Vue

Starting Over

So, there is a lot to talk about in today's update. So much has happened in the past few days. Yesterday (Thursday) I had to go to this place to get some assistance with my rent. They said I didn't make enough money to get assistance, um helloooooo if I worked more I definitely wouldn't need the assistance. My apartment manager is working with me she said if I get as much stuff out as i can and not to worry about cleaning it today before 3pm then it would save me quite a bit of money. So while I'm stuck at work my friends are packing m y stuff and putting it in a storage unit. I have moved in with a friend of mine, and we had always planned on me moving in just not this quickly. So there are 7 grown ass men/women staying in said friends house. Let's call him Humper. And my stuff is in the room I'm supposed to stay in but this pregnant chick is there with her 3 kids. I don't mind a whole lot, except my 4,000 dollar flat screen is back there. ( Birthday present from Humper, he believes everyone needs a big TV.) So as I'm trying to finish moving my stuff last night he asks to use my car so he could go pick up some girl. ( said girl left a bloody ass towel hanging up in the bathroom, and bloody TP on the floor. EEWWW!!!!!) I told him no so he proceeded to cuss me out and tell me what a horrible friend I am. But I wonder why he asked in the first place, I have only let him drive my car twice. And I will never let him again and he knows it. So since I need a place to stay I quite packing and went over there and threw the keys at him. " It doesn't matter if I lose all my shit, go get your pussy. you got some three hours ago but go get the nasty girl and bring her back over." I didn't know he had sent a friend to go get her and she was already there... oops. In return he says, " I don't even know why you are staying here cause your not giving me any pussy. So get to work." As he said that last part he had whipped out his junk and stood there. He apologised this morning but that was beyond f*cked up what he did. ALSO he pee'd in my damn iced tea so I went and threw it on him and the girl. Im the only person putting food in that house and washing EVERY ONES clothes because I know I dont have that much money and I am being treated like dog shit. I'm not a damn taxi which everyone seems to think, and I'm not having sex with ANYONE in that house. I talked to MM last night after all was said and done and he said it sounds like I need a sugar daddy to help me out. He asked me how much I need to move into an apartment and I told him 600, its not an apartment I would move into under normal circumstances but I need somewhere quick to move me in and cheap that I will be able to afford. He asked me if that was my rent for every month and he was going to help me. Does that mean he wants to help me get an apartment and pay for it?? So I guess we will need to see what really happens... I have gotten hardly any activity on the sites, so no new pot SD. Oh by the way one of Humpers friends was going through my undies last night. I am very disturbed. An ex of mine has come back into my life, lets call him Billy. When me and Billy started dating it really was love at first site, I have never connected with anyone the way we connected, EVER. He deployed for 12 months and we broke up after his 3rd month he wanted to concentrate on his duties. Understandable right? So the rest of the time in Iraq he tells me how in love with me he is and he wants a family with me. But when he came home he acted way different. He drank all day everyday from when he woke up to when he passed out. One night we did mattress mambo and he text me 30 minutes after I left saying he never wanted to see me again or talk to me , its not me its him, he is so fucked up in the head he doesn't wanna bring me down.... etc, etc. I was so pissed off I had absolutely no intentions on ever speaking to him again, Humper is actually the one who talked me out of that.
Humper: Do you remember what it was like when I cam back from Iraq?
Me: yeah I do, but you never said anything like that to any one.
Humper: I never had to do field operations on my friends either, but he's a medic and he has seen alto more than you think. He really does care for you and its going to take some time for him to get used to being a civilian again. He has been in war/soldier mode for over a year, give him time to re-adjust. He'll come to you when he knows he is better. But you remember my dreams and the way certain noises got to me for a while, he doesn't want you to see that.
( this was September when we talked)
So needless to say he was right. But now I don't want a BF. I'm on a quest for sugar, for the right sugar. And I just really don't want one right now. Well I think that covers everything.
Ta Ta
Deja Vue

Thinking about making a FB

So I was way to tired to update last night, but I definetly have some news. Mr. T has been in contact, but after taking time to think about it I do not want to continue talking to him. I sent him an e-mail saying we were on different pages with what we want and it would be best to part ways now. He completely disagreed and said I didn't know how to be a proper sugar baby but he would be patient.. I completly disagree with him, this maybe my first time but im learning. PLUS whenever I bought up the allowance he would ask me to move in with him, and not talk about giving me an allowance. So Mr. T has left my good graces, for good. Now Sniper ,lol, he is quite a character. He said we were going to go out to dinner and he knew I didnt have my rent so he wanted to give it to me. ( I didn't ask him) So I agreed to meet him at his house so we could find a place to go eat. He lives in a trailer, its kinda nice but still. A trailer. So I waited in the car, (yeah I drove) he came back and led me to the downtown area. Dairy Queen is what we had for dinner. Oh but listen to this he told me he didn't have my rent my to keep the change.I xoulnd't fuckin believe it. Then when we stopped to get gas ( he filled my tank) I called one of my friends told him to call me in five minutes and I was going to act like I was getting called into work. I got home as quickly as possible.
So I have been working on this blog for a 2 days now but im finally making my self finish today. Today I am supposed to be meeting MM for lunch. Well I just got called into work so I don't know how well that will work. I tried calling my job last night to let them know I couldn't be on call I have school today also and needed to try to get my rent paid. But I guess someone felt like they didn't need to answer the phone. That makes me so mad. On top of that i woke up at 3:30 am and havent been to sleep since. Sooooo sleepy. I just need to get out of here so I can get the things done that I neede to get done in the first place. Oh yeah and I was thinking about making a facebook, but I don't know what I would put on their. Well I'll update later, can't type anymore.
Ta Ta
Deja Vue

Chicken Cannelloni

Hey!! Its really late but I was sitting here checking my e-mail when I realised I haven't updated in awhile and I have good news and kinda bad news. But first I noticed I have my first follow, *hi cherry*. Well last night I met up with Mr. T to have dinner. Now I don't know if I mentioned it but we were supposed to meet up on Friday and go shopping. Mr. T said something happened at the club and he couldn't get away. So he drove down to my city which is over an hour from the city he stays in. 9AM my phone rings and its a text, "hey hun im in the _____ I will be here all today and all tomorrow." So I texted him back yet I didn't hear from him through out the day. He finally text me after I got called into work and asked if we could meet for dinner. I told him it bothered me somewhat that he ignores me all day for the second day in a row. He said he hadn't gotten any of my text but really wants to see me. Needless to say I eventually said yes and meet him at a resturant 10 minutes away from my house. Dinner was...... pleasant. Don't get me wrong he was nice, there were no awkward silences probably because he talked most of the time. The waiter we had though, wow. He was really something else. He flirted with me almost the entire time we were there, not to mention I caught him staring down my shirt quite a few times. Mr. T saw these things and did not one thing about it. Once when he came back to fill up my drink I asked him to look at my face and not below my neck line. So not only that but Mr. T had said he was going to help me with my rent because im short this month, when I bought it up he didn't say one thing.Then after dinner we agreed to meet today for some shopping and lunch. ..... I didn't hear from him until about 6:30 this evening. He said the went to Cripple Creek and that he thought I didn't want to see him. When I asked him why he thought that he said it was the hug I gave him. But minutes before I left he held me in his arms because it was so cold outside. I sent him a text around 9 to let him know that he needed to decide where things went from here because this were starting to get confusing.
So Sniper wants to see me tomorrow and said he wants to give me a gift. I don't mind see Sniper because we do have great conversations. But I am not physically attracted to him. He wants to take me to A few holiday parties. The only thing about that is he mentioned them being something like swingers parties, but he wouldn't talk about it any farther.
I talked to MM today so far we are still up for lunch on Wednesday, I'm actually pretty excited to be meeting him. Im not sure why but its something about him. He never once asked for more pictures or even talks about sex. We'll I'm pretty tired and need to go to sleep, I have to take a friend of m ine to work... (LAME!!)
Ta Ta
Deja Vue