Positive thinking is finally paying off!!

Its been so long since I was able to get on here regularly but I should be able to soon. Work has been amazing working my butt off thats for sure... I am now 10 pounds away from my goal weigh which is amazing!!!. I have been slacking on the sb side of things. Kind of on purpose but at the same time kinda not. I got bit by a spider once I got settled in my new place and had horrible body cramps for almost 2 weeks. ( they got easier as time went on but where still harsh.lol) And I pulled my groin mucle going hiking in the mountains. Now if any of you are like me you are asking yourself right now how the f*ck do you pull your groin muscle. According to my aunt who does have a medical license it is done very easily from LACK of strecthing with strenous activity. As is any other pulled muscle, BUT when you've pulled it takes 3-6 weeks to fully heal. That was horrible. Now i stretch everyday ( im not pulling another muscle) But I need to get back on the band wagon and im looking forward to it.. Im going to try to get on more and write more to,Sorry about the lack of editing and proper grammer in a bit of a rush since im watching my nephew.*
hope to hear from everyone and how things have been!!
Best wishes
Deja Vue

Im back!!

Its been so long since I last posted and so much has changed. I have completly gotten rid of Mr. Feen, after some serious thought he really wasnt my SD type. Really weird, kind of annoying. He always referred to himself as other than human.
Cowboy has come through with everything he said he would an allowance of 1k ( with some extras), shopping, dining, lots of gifts, and he is honestly a great friend.My stepfather passed away recently and I was the one who found him. Cowboy talked to me long into the night about everything life, work, love, death. He decided then that I needed a job that could pay me my worth and asked me to help him expand his own business. So I now have 2 jobs, both I which I thoroughly enjoy. ( And yes the employment is completly seperate from the SB/SD arrangement). And to top of my sugar mountain of some of the ups and downs I've had I am now writing this from my living room, on my laptop.
Im still on the sites even though I really havent been on there in quite sometime I think they are still active. Living by myself I feel lonely sometimes and it kinda makes me want a boyfriend. Kinda. Im sorry my thoughts are all jumbled and I keep jumping around like crazy im lacking sleep today. I will be on and writing alot more though. Cant wait to get caught up on how everyone's been doing.


Deja Vue

Serious question girls... I know its been awhile but i will explain later... Do you guys have to pysch your self up for sex with your SD? And how do you do it?

Cowboy

Cowboy is supposed to be coming into town this week. I got to pick the hotel this time ( I told him I wanted to be able to get a spa treatment) I'm really , really excited.. Hopefully the allowance of 1k that we agreed on I will be getting when I see him. He really is a great guy, so glad I gave him a chance... The older SD's definetly have the means to spoil and pamper..lol I still keep in touch with Mr. Feen, he wanted to see me tonight but I think I am going to cancel. I had asked for some money the last time I saw him and he gave me a whole 160.00. I was happy I got some money but at the same time I was like wow, really??? I know he has the money for more. Maybe I need to sit down with him and actually discuss an allowance.. Not just graze over the subject. well just wanted to do a quick update... Will write more at a later time. Good luck in your hunt for sugar ladies!!
Deja Vue

Horrible night.

This has nothing to do with sugar but I needed to vent anyways. Last night I was on IM with the guy I said is kinda my bf lets call him Blondie. SO im looking at Blondies myspace as we chat and see pictures of him and his supposedly ex fiancee on vacation in the Bahamas. She commented them in November and we started seeing each other again in October. Then I see where her name still say future Mrs. _____. And it said he was engaged.I was speech lees to say the least. I wrote and said, " I hate it when I look at someone page and see what I wasn't expecting or what I want to see. I can't fucking believe you lied to me about you guys breaking up. I can't and won't do this (us) anymore." He tried to IM me back so I went invisible (yahoo) he then writes me on myspace ( IM and message). I still don't answer. He then text me, again no reply. So he calls. He calls me 20 times before I text him and say I'm on the phone. I wasn't i just couldn't talk to him as I was crying my heart out. I couldn't believe that after 2 years of him chasing me and I finally give in he did this. They supposedly broke up early October because he couldn't be with her when he had such strong feeling s for me. He said he could explain I just needed to call him. I didn't. So he calls me 5 minutes later and unfortunately I was sitting on my phone and my ass answered, so I talked to him. He told me he just hasn't updated his page in a long time. He said he likes me so much he would never do that to me. I would never be the other woman. He had been picked over and he didn't want to do that to me. He tried convincing me to come see him, ( I'm currently in Denver and he is back home, an hour away)He said he'd give me gas money and all that jazz. But I couldn't bring myself to go. He then talked about how he knows other guys are interested in me and how they are trying to swoon me away from him. He wants to take me shopping, he wants to make up for this. Oh and I didn't mention we had plans on NYE and he blew me off for the guys. I'm supposed to be going down there today to pick up my mom so she can spend some time with my step dad, I am supposed to see him. I don't know if I want to though. I don't know what to do, think, or say right now. Should I see him and let him take me shopping and out to dinner to make up for it?? Or should I leave it as it is, and break things off completely. What a horrible lame ass night.

A cherry topeed weekend

Hope everyone had a wonderful NYE Happy New Year sugar babes!!I met Cowboy this weekend and he was so sweet, here is how the weekend went. Friday he got into town and we agreed to meet up at 6 that evening. Needless to say I was in the same city at the time I was still pretty hung over from NYE. At 9 we finally met up and he put 500 cash in my hand then went to dinner at this Mexican restaurant ( we both love Mexican!) It was a bit weird at first because he was in his cowboy get up, every time we left the room he wore it. We went back to the room had a few margaritas as he rubbed my feet and shoulders then watched a few movies and fell asleep. He woke up around 7 as did I but I went back to sleep. I finally woke up at 11 and he says, " your just so purty, even when your sleepin like a little lamb." We ordered some room service and was absolutely amazed at the fact that you could get Starbucks coffee sent up.... AWESOME!!! I Had to get a TB time test later that afternoon but when I went back we went shopping. He spent just under 1k!! I basically have a new wardrobe, I couldn't believe it. He said I was well worth it and he was going to spoil me rotten. I have a facebook, don't remember the password for it, i think I remember the screen name but if anyone wants to see what I have just let me know and I'll post pix. SO we had dinner and went back to the room where he proceeded to talk about us having a long term arrangement and getting me an apartment so I could live on my own again and we would have a place to meet up. As nice as it sounds I told him I would think about it and let him know. He says it has been a fantasy of his to be with a black women since he was 16, he is in his 50's. Later on that night came the part I was really nervous about, having sex. downed a few shots of tequila and went to my car to smoke a cigarette while giving myself a pep talk. I went back upstairs and brushed my teeth washed my hands and changed into boys shorts and a tank top. Had another two shots. Then it started. He was.... OK. He ate me out for awhile, until I came. Then we had sex. He was so soft and tender, it actually bugged me. And he kept referring to it as "making love." Every time he said it I had to bit my tongue so I wouldn't roll my eyes.We get along so well, maybe sex is hard because he is so much older than me. But I do want him to be my SD, I Just wish he wouldn't wear his cowboy get up everywhere. Tomorrow I have a lunch date with a pot SD named Aussie. he is in his late 30's and is very interested in "dark skinned women." He says if all goes well we can get a room. Wow He really wants to jump into it. BUt all must go well. I have the perfect outfit planned for tomorrow (thanks to cowboy) and I have scrubbed my face and now have on a mask. Wow its been so long since I've had money i forgot how good little home spas feel. lol. I'm wearing peep toe stilettos so I'm doing another coat of polish and I have to fix my nails.so I remember reading Sweet Tooth's blog about what she found in one of her pot's bag so I checked cowboys : Viagra,benedryl, a prescriptions for stomach ulcers. That put me at ease a bit. lol. Well I can't move my face, need to take off this mask. I'll be updating again tomorrow!!! have a good night!!!
Deja Vue

Quick update!
Im at the hotel with cowboy.... He is definetly s keeper. He might really be my SD fingers crossed!!