A Long Hiatus

Hey there!!
It has been so long since I have blogged because well not much has been going on. My mother wanted me to stay with her at my brothers house which I have been for the past few weeks. I totally regret it now, I have missed out on so much sugar!! ( my city isn't really a major one) All the SD I talk to are in the major city next to mine which I like. I saw My. Feen today haven't seen 0r talked to him since we met up at some 4 or 5 diamond hotel. (I didn't know they rateed in diamond now, lol) We did some oral and then he said we would have lunch on Wed and he would be giiving me some money. The only thing is it would be a company check, I dont know if I should take it or not. He also wants to do something on NYE but idk we'll see. Mr.T has a few gifts for me. But I still cant bring myself to see him. He isn't able to give me what I want. But expects everything else. He is very persistent and I might just give in and go see him.But he wants me to stay the night. That would definitly be for someone who wants to give me a gift or money. Well I just contradicted my self. He has gifts. BUt I NEED money!! LOL I found a job I start sometime in January and I have an interview tomorrow. So I might just have two, but thet will both be part time. I was reading a blog where she talked about making up an alter persona. And wondered if I should do the same thing. I havent talked to MM. I reallty think that is done. I dont mind though. I think as soon as I get my own place I will feel alot better about certain things in my life. If Mr. Feen is serious I might just have to see if he is willing to put me in an apartment. But It would be in his city not mine. Only an hour away, but my job is the only thing... hhhmmm. I still havent fixed my blog from last month.. but I will. Well I need to go pick up a friend from the airport, well he's my kinda boyfriend just not official yet. But strange thing about him is he gets turned on by me dating other guys. I love rough sex and after I go see him from going on a date he gets all jealous and gives be the best sex!! Its twisted I know, but cool. He might be cool with the whole SD thing, as long as I dont tell him we actually do the do.
Ta for now!!
Deja Vue

Sugar Coaster

Ok so when I last updated it was from my mobile and I am going to try to fix that post tonight... It had never done that before... So just a quick update and then when I get home i will fill in. ( I am currently at my stepdads house) Met a new few new pot SD. Mr. Ski, and Mr. Feen.
Mr. Ski took me out to this wonderful mexican resturant (my fav food!!) and then took me shopping after words. I admit I liked him, he wants to go skiing sometime, he definetly has potential to be my SD. Mr. Feen, eh he is something else. He almost reminds me of a guy I read about in someone elses blog. * when i think of the blog ill let you know* He was a nice guy for the most part, got a little upset when I wouldnt have sex with him and said you do realise thats a big part of sd4m right? I told him I was ragging ( not in those words though) and he went on this whole thing about how freaked out women get about sex but he sees it on a whole different level. Can't exactly remember what he said as we did have a left handed cigarrette..lol thats what my stepdad calls a joint, etc. But what made me stay and decide to actually get to know him was the fact that my ex told me this same shit when we broke up. They viewed sex the exact same way, whats so fucked up is it kinda makes sense. Just not my cup of tea. How many men view sex as a level of love, and connection. How many men really feel like they NEED to have sex? I wish I could explain this better, maybe if I have a few drinks I can explain it better, lol i just might be able to. But he said if I stick with him I can have whatever I want. I want have to want for anything. He totally checks out by the way. I havent heard from MM in a few days. We are supposed to see each other tomorrow, he wanted to meet up on Wednesday but I told him we couldnt. He asked why and I told him it was that time. That was the last time I heard from him. I have his cell # should I text him and see if we are still on? I was supposed to get my allowance tomorrow, but if im still on my cycle I dont think that would be possible. How do you girls discuss Aunt Flo with your SD??? I only want one SD and im not 100% on any of them yet. Oh wow... Mr.T just messaged me...

UPDATE

SO as we all know the H1N1 (swine flu) has been a big deal to alot of countries and it is predicted to become an epidemic. And we also know I had moved in with my friend Humper, well Humper has these friends who have been over for a few days and gotten the whole house sick with swine flu. I just got out of the hospital I got it the worst. i will let you know more later but I feel so weak right now I can barely hold myself up.... BEst wishes in your sugary hunts girls.
Deja Vue

Starting Over

So, there is a lot to talk about in today's update. So much has happened in the past few days. Yesterday (Thursday) I had to go to this place to get some assistance with my rent. They said I didn't make enough money to get assistance, um helloooooo if I worked more I definitely wouldn't need the assistance. My apartment manager is working with me she said if I get as much stuff out as i can and not to worry about cleaning it today before 3pm then it would save me quite a bit of money. So while I'm stuck at work my friends are packing m y stuff and putting it in a storage unit. I have moved in with a friend of mine, and we had always planned on me moving in just not this quickly. So there are 7 grown ass men/women staying in said friends house. Let's call him Humper. And my stuff is in the room I'm supposed to stay in but this pregnant chick is there with her 3 kids. I don't mind a whole lot, except my 4,000 dollar flat screen is back there. ( Birthday present from Humper, he believes everyone needs a big TV.) So as I'm trying to finish moving my stuff last night he asks to use my car so he could go pick up some girl. ( said girl left a bloody ass towel hanging up in the bathroom, and bloody TP on the floor. EEWWW!!!!!) I told him no so he proceeded to cuss me out and tell me what a horrible friend I am. But I wonder why he asked in the first place, I have only let him drive my car twice. And I will never let him again and he knows it. So since I need a place to stay I quite packing and went over there and threw the keys at him. " It doesn't matter if I lose all my shit, go get your pussy. you got some three hours ago but go get the nasty girl and bring her back over." I didn't know he had sent a friend to go get her and she was already there... oops. In return he says, " I don't even know why you are staying here cause your not giving me any pussy. So get to work." As he said that last part he had whipped out his junk and stood there. He apologised this morning but that was beyond f*cked up what he did. ALSO he pee'd in my damn iced tea so I went and threw it on him and the girl. Im the only person putting food in that house and washing EVERY ONES clothes because I know I dont have that much money and I am being treated like dog shit. I'm not a damn taxi which everyone seems to think, and I'm not having sex with ANYONE in that house. I talked to MM last night after all was said and done and he said it sounds like I need a sugar daddy to help me out. He asked me how much I need to move into an apartment and I told him 600, its not an apartment I would move into under normal circumstances but I need somewhere quick to move me in and cheap that I will be able to afford. He asked me if that was my rent for every month and he was going to help me. Does that mean he wants to help me get an apartment and pay for it?? So I guess we will need to see what really happens... I have gotten hardly any activity on the sites, so no new pot SD. Oh by the way one of Humpers friends was going through my undies last night. I am very disturbed. An ex of mine has come back into my life, lets call him Billy. When me and Billy started dating it really was love at first site, I have never connected with anyone the way we connected, EVER. He deployed for 12 months and we broke up after his 3rd month he wanted to concentrate on his duties. Understandable right? So the rest of the time in Iraq he tells me how in love with me he is and he wants a family with me. But when he came home he acted way different. He drank all day everyday from when he woke up to when he passed out. One night we did mattress mambo and he text me 30 minutes after I left saying he never wanted to see me again or talk to me , its not me its him, he is so fucked up in the head he doesn't wanna bring me down.... etc, etc. I was so pissed off I had absolutely no intentions on ever speaking to him again, Humper is actually the one who talked me out of that.
Humper: Do you remember what it was like when I cam back from Iraq?
Me: yeah I do, but you never said anything like that to any one.
Humper: I never had to do field operations on my friends either, but he's a medic and he has seen alto more than you think. He really does care for you and its going to take some time for him to get used to being a civilian again. He has been in war/soldier mode for over a year, give him time to re-adjust. He'll come to you when he knows he is better. But you remember my dreams and the way certain noises got to me for a while, he doesn't want you to see that.
( this was September when we talked)
So needless to say he was right. But now I don't want a BF. I'm on a quest for sugar, for the right sugar. And I just really don't want one right now. Well I think that covers everything.
Ta Ta
Deja Vue

Thinking about making a FB

So I was way to tired to update last night, but I definetly have some news. Mr. T has been in contact, but after taking time to think about it I do not want to continue talking to him. I sent him an e-mail saying we were on different pages with what we want and it would be best to part ways now. He completely disagreed and said I didn't know how to be a proper sugar baby but he would be patient.. I completly disagree with him, this maybe my first time but im learning. PLUS whenever I bought up the allowance he would ask me to move in with him, and not talk about giving me an allowance. So Mr. T has left my good graces, for good. Now Sniper ,lol, he is quite a character. He said we were going to go out to dinner and he knew I didnt have my rent so he wanted to give it to me. ( I didn't ask him) So I agreed to meet him at his house so we could find a place to go eat. He lives in a trailer, its kinda nice but still. A trailer. So I waited in the car, (yeah I drove) he came back and led me to the downtown area. Dairy Queen is what we had for dinner. Oh but listen to this he told me he didn't have my rent my to keep the change.I xoulnd't fuckin believe it. Then when we stopped to get gas ( he filled my tank) I called one of my friends told him to call me in five minutes and I was going to act like I was getting called into work. I got home as quickly as possible.
So I have been working on this blog for a 2 days now but im finally making my self finish today. Today I am supposed to be meeting MM for lunch. Well I just got called into work so I don't know how well that will work. I tried calling my job last night to let them know I couldn't be on call I have school today also and needed to try to get my rent paid. But I guess someone felt like they didn't need to answer the phone. That makes me so mad. On top of that i woke up at 3:30 am and havent been to sleep since. Sooooo sleepy. I just need to get out of here so I can get the things done that I neede to get done in the first place. Oh yeah and I was thinking about making a facebook, but I don't know what I would put on their. Well I'll update later, can't type anymore.
Ta Ta
Deja Vue

Chicken Cannelloni

Hey!! Its really late but I was sitting here checking my e-mail when I realised I haven't updated in awhile and I have good news and kinda bad news. But first I noticed I have my first follow, *hi cherry*. Well last night I met up with Mr. T to have dinner. Now I don't know if I mentioned it but we were supposed to meet up on Friday and go shopping. Mr. T said something happened at the club and he couldn't get away. So he drove down to my city which is over an hour from the city he stays in. 9AM my phone rings and its a text, "hey hun im in the _____ I will be here all today and all tomorrow." So I texted him back yet I didn't hear from him through out the day. He finally text me after I got called into work and asked if we could meet for dinner. I told him it bothered me somewhat that he ignores me all day for the second day in a row. He said he hadn't gotten any of my text but really wants to see me. Needless to say I eventually said yes and meet him at a resturant 10 minutes away from my house. Dinner was...... pleasant. Don't get me wrong he was nice, there were no awkward silences probably because he talked most of the time. The waiter we had though, wow. He was really something else. He flirted with me almost the entire time we were there, not to mention I caught him staring down my shirt quite a few times. Mr. T saw these things and did not one thing about it. Once when he came back to fill up my drink I asked him to look at my face and not below my neck line. So not only that but Mr. T had said he was going to help me with my rent because im short this month, when I bought it up he didn't say one thing.Then after dinner we agreed to meet today for some shopping and lunch. ..... I didn't hear from him until about 6:30 this evening. He said the went to Cripple Creek and that he thought I didn't want to see him. When I asked him why he thought that he said it was the hug I gave him. But minutes before I left he held me in his arms because it was so cold outside. I sent him a text around 9 to let him know that he needed to decide where things went from here because this were starting to get confusing.
So Sniper wants to see me tomorrow and said he wants to give me a gift. I don't mind see Sniper because we do have great conversations. But I am not physically attracted to him. He wants to take me to A few holiday parties. The only thing about that is he mentioned them being something like swingers parties, but he wouldn't talk about it any farther.
I talked to MM today so far we are still up for lunch on Wednesday, I'm actually pretty excited to be meeting him. Im not sure why but its something about him. He never once asked for more pictures or even talks about sex. We'll I'm pretty tired and need to go to sleep, I have to take a friend of m ine to work... (LAME!!)
Ta Ta
Deja Vue

In A Daze

So I am in a sleep deprived daze.... I went to work yesterday at 8 am and got off at 8 pm. The night before I got called in TWICE!!! Once from 6pm to 10pm, then my job called almost right after I got home and didn't get off till 4 am!! They called me last night to tell me the person who is supposed to work the night shift called off and they wanted me to go back. But I couldn't I had to take my mom to Denver. So instead I had to come in from 6am to 8pm. I was/am so angry.

But I do have some sugary news the broker I mentioned in my last post I know I shouldn't have done it but I met him last night. Hmmm lets call him Sweets. Well I called him when I got off of work last night and before I knew it we had been on the phone for over an hour. So he said when you get up to my town give me a call.

So I started this post like 2 or 3 days ago and I know have time to finish. I did end up meeting with Sweets and everything went WONDERFUL!!! He was such a gentlemen, we went to the bar and I had a few glasses of wine he had a vodka soda. When I asked him about the whole SD/SB thing he was OK with helping me out etc. So I called him the next day because we were going to meet up on Wednesday but he didn't answer. So I e-mailed him and he said he didn't want to pay for a girlfriend, plenty of women want to date him. And even though he really liked me the sugar daddy thing isn't for him. But my question is if so many women want to date you why are you on sd4m? And who said I was looking for a boyfriend? I am on a quest for sugar land. Even if that relationship goes to something else I don't want to juggle an sd and a bf.

Mr. T- Hmm he is definitely working his way back into my graces. He told me how much he liked me and how beautiful I was. But the way he acted on the first date really turned me off. I mean come on, he didn't even leave a tip!! But he wants to meet up again today the only bad thing about that is I have to work later than what I expected. He is supposedly going to help me with my rent and take me shopping. But he asked me to move in with him. That's just not something I am ready to do or think about. And I think he understands that.

Sniper- He is still there and still interested, but I'm not sure if I am. I don't know how truthful he was being about his income. Again I am looking for a sugar daddy. Not a boyfriend. He wants to meet up this weekend and go to this place where they will be doing something for Wheel Of Fortune. I really don't want to go. He also wants to talk about holiday parties that are coming up that he wants me to go too. But he said something about them being swingers parties...... Don't think that's really my scene. There is something about Sniper that just makes me bite my nails...

MM- He really seems like the one who will become my official SD. He wanted to meet up for lunch yesterday but had to cancel at the last minute because someone came to his office he needed to have lunch with. So next Wednesday is when we are supposed to have our first date. I really hope I can get my nails done before that because I really need a fill. He is all for allowance and gifts and maybe even trips every once in awhile. So I am happy. But I still kinda wonder because he wont send me a picture of his face or tell me his full name. He says there are too many people that could get hurt if his actions were to get out. He also says I will feel better once I have actually met him. We are going to be going to an Italian restaurant.

Now I need to introduce somebody new. Let's call him Mr. Italian. Mr. Italian is someone I have talked to for just under two years. We don't live in the same state but we are always on web cam with each other. In fact we are right now. LOL. But he was supposed to come visit me at the beginning of the year but he didn't. He says its because he had feelings that were so strong for me he was afraid he was going to mess things up between us eventually. Well now we have been talking everyday for the past month or so and last night he had asked me to do something and I told him I couldn't because he wasn't the only one viewing my cam. (sniper and Mr.T were also watching) He got so upset he was all like so you are talking to other guys? Have you had sex with anyone? Have you kissed any guys? How do you really actually feel about me? I told him the truth , I do have feeling for him, and yes I did kiss another guy but no sex. So in return he said no more. He told me he wasn't having sex at all until he sees me and he wants me to do the same. I'm like wow... We aren't even together , But we will see how it all plays out when he comes to visit.

I don't know if anyone is reading but I hope so.....
Ta for now!!
Deja Vue

Super excited

AAHHH!!!! So MM just said we should meet up sometime. When I asked him what he wanted sd/sb wise he said i deserve an allowance and surprise gifts!!!!! So hopefully he sticks with it. And I there is another one is, he is in the city next to me he is super hot, 35, and a broker...... Did I mention hot...???
MM hasnt sent me a pic of his face, he was talking a discretion becuase he is married but I know that I just want to know what he looks like. He sent me his uh "head shot." Im not super comfortable meeting him and he wont send a pic. If anyone is reading will you please give me some advice...
Deja Vue

Introduction.. Finally

So I've been reading blogs on here for a few weeks now and have decided to start my own. I'm "Deja Vue" I'm a 19 yr old female living in the Colorado. I am on the quest to find a sugar daddy. I'm actually kinda surprised at how many other women are also looking for SD's. I am a C.N.A and i do work, but on my income alone I'll never be able to just go out shopping or go buy something for my self. I just recently got more hours at work, so I wont be struggling as hard as I was last month but it will still be tight. Up until recently I never really had a man that spoiled or did things for me. I was always the one shelling out money... Well not anymore!!! My favorite restaurant is the Olive Garden, I absolutely love pink, and any thing shiny/ glittery. I just flat out love girly things. I haven't been shopping in the longest time and I would absolutely love to go. I don't really have a boyfriend right now , well I guess I can tell you the story. So my ex ( we will refer to him as Mr. Strange. Mr. Strange and I met about 2 1/2 years ago we kept running into each other at the grocery store. We started dating and it was amazing. He is tall, tan, skinny but he does have some very nice abs. Anyways he deployed to Iraq about a month after we started dating and everything was fine and dandy. Well about 6 1/2 months into the deployment ( after we got engaged) he isn't calling me as much, no more sweet I.M's at like 3 am..... SO I didn't know what to do, one day I get an e-mail saying," My friend saw you walking down the street holding hands with some guy, we over." I was devastated not only did he have the audacity to break up with me in an e-mail but couldn't even give me a valid reason. ( I was taking my C.N.A course so i was studying so much I only left the house for class.) Not even 48 hours later he has some other chick all over his myspace... I was so pissed! Two months later he calls me gives me this whole story about how he loves me and he lied about me cheating because he was in A bad place and didn't want to bring me down with him. We got back together, and everything was bliss again. BUT 2 or 3 months later I was just bored and decided to look at his pictures that he had up... Well to say I was very surprised to find comments about what was going to happen when he came home. And they where things he should have only said to me. Needless to say he cheated on me 6 times will he was in Iraq. Not only was he talking to women online telling them he loved them and sh*t but he was having sex with some of the female soldiers. Broke up again. He go home in February, May 23 my phone rang and the voice on the other end made me want to bite my tongue. I don't know how he did it because I had put up a wall and had no intentions of letting him back in my heart but some how he did it. In July he had to move to a new duty station (Ft. Bragg) and I was going to move in October... Well imagine my surprise when I get on his myspace because he asked me to chat with his mom and see message between him and this girl who friggin lives in N.C. I broke it off, my mom is involved and really wants us to get back together. But I really need to stay strong and NOT let him back into my heart. So if anyone reads my blog eventually please remind me to stay strong!! LOL. Anyways got way off track there. I have joined a few of those dating sites including SA and SD4M. I have a few potentials I will tell you. I have already told you of Mr. T , he is a bar/grill/club owner he is 39. Snipper is another on he is 46 and retired. ( I think he lied about his income, met him once not to sure if I want to again.) And there is MM (married man) he is 44. But I checked my SA account and I had two new messages, and one of them was the certified member that I had written too.
So in my first blog I was waiting for Mr. T at Village Inn in the city next to mine. Not only did I wait for him for like an hour but get this he had no watch, his sneakers looked worse than my oldest pair of shoes, and he didn't get anything to eat. I could have looked past all of this, he could have been trying to tone him self down. But no, he said he had to run outside because he left his wallet in the car so he went outside and got some money and paid the bill. Left no tip which I think is so tacky, and cheap. And then when I had asked him about the gas money he said he would give me he said he would have to go up the street because he left his wallet at home ( he thought I was going to go to his house! HA!) So yeah he must have thought I was young and dumb and wouldn't catch it.. So yeah he went past the exit on the highway he said we need to get my gas money so i turned around and put 3 buck in then headed home.... He called me and asked what happened and I told him I wasn't driving all over and I had work the next day, it was already 3 AM. he said he thought I was going to go to his house and hang out for a bit. I could always sleep over there if i needed. But I really didn't feel comfortable with that, oh I didn't mention he wanted me to meet him at his house. Ummmm so yeah I think that is it for now.... I might post again later.... I'm really hoping to here from the certified guy and if i do i will definitely post.
Ta for now.
Deja Vue

*Update*
Mr. T was stuck in traffic but is now on his way... I've been waiting for over an hour so he says he is going to make it up to me... But bad is that he just called and traffic has stopped again. Ugh I hate construction... But said he can see the village inn and will be here soon.... Wow im really nervous.

So I know I haven't done and introduction yet but im sitting here waiting for a pot SD so i thought I'd blog some. Hmmm lets call this guy Mr.T. I met Mr.T a few weeks ago on sd4m we have been instant messaging and texting ever since. Our plans got pushed back some so we are now meeting at Village Inn... I have been reading other SB blogs about what to look for on the first date i.e. Wallet, shoes, watch, and car. We have talked about finances and he says he would help me, but i still haven't given him a specific amount for an allowance. I wonder if it will come up tonight. I dont want less than 1k a month because that would cover all the bills. Oh I forgot to say that Mr. T says he makes 200-300k a year and i googled him and he seems to be the real deal... Whew im feeling so nervous!!! Well i think he is almost here... Will post again later.
By the way im on my mobile so any editing i might need to do i will do when i get home.... Ta for now!
deja vue